Examples of God's goodness

There are times here that I feel like I am living life upside down and backwards. Nothing feels the same. Even the simplest things feel different. And, I definitely struggle with trust issues! I am not sure why. God reminds me of his faithfulness again and again but still I struggle with trusting Him. Even though He is taking care of me and looking out for me, I feel like I have to do it. As I was praying yesterday about this, God brought to mind a memory from my freshman year of college.

It was my first quarter as a freshman at Georgia Tech. Finally, Independence! I am a big girl now! I can handle anything. Yeah Right! November of that year, I got some pretty bad food poisoning or so I thought. Several days later, I was still pretty bad. I tried going to classes but was having a hard time and something just did not feel right. I am not sure why, but something said go to the hospital. Since I did not have a car, I called dad who lived about 45 minutes away. Even though it was late and it was a work night, there was no hesitation. The next thing I knew my dad was there. It felt like only a few moments had passed. While we were driving, I felt like I was being silly and dramatic. I was sure it was nothing and it would pass soon. However, my dad still thought it would be good to go to the hospital. For the first time ever, we got in right away at the emergency room. I barely remember anything except for all of a sudden I was on a bed with lots of wires stuck in me. I was not sure what was going on, but my dad was by my side the whole time handling everything. Throughout the night, I would doze in and out as several doctors would come in. Most of that time is hazy, but the one thing I do remember is that my dad never left me. Every time I woke up, there he was at my bedside holding my hand. I felt like I was in a fog. Doctors were talking to my dad and arranging the procedure and going through the process of admitting me. Not once did I feel fear or anxiety. I felt taken care of the whole time. My dad was there. I trusted him completely and felt safe and loved. I knew everything was going to be okay.

So, after praying I realized that was a glimpse of how God loves me and takes care of me. He is always there working on my behalf even when I do not completely understand what is going on. Life can seem hazy and upside down but God never lets go. I can relax and trust Him.