Light Bulb moment

Do you ever have one of those moments where the light bulb turns on and things start to make more sense? You see how things fit together or you see why you have been feeling a certain way. I have definitely been struggling lately for various reasons, one of those reasons has been the language. My relationships can not go deep unless I speak their language. I miss parts of conversations, things take longer, and people are much less likely to listen to me and respect me when I speak in English and use a translator. As I think many of you know, I have been praying that I will be able to converse with ease by Christmas time. I want that click to happen where I do not have to translate everything in my head and I can have deep and meaningful conversations with others. I know that I will acheive fluency by that time but I hope to be well on my way. I began praying that some time this summer and felt like it was from the Lord.

Throughout these past months, I felt like I have made significant progress. I am definitely able to speak a lot more but lately I feel like I am on a plateau and the progression has not been as great. I have begun to doubt God and His faithfulness, even though time and time and time again He has showed me that He is faithful and good.

While I was driving my tutor home yesterday, I had a light bulb moment. Because right now, I can't speak like I hope to in six weeks, I assume that means God isn't faithful. He has not already done what I have prayed will happen in the future. I don't see how it can happen. I feel so far. Then it clicked, Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Having faith in God, means trusting Him even when it doesn't make sense even when it seems impossible. So right now, I am trusting by faith that God will finish the work He has begun. It is not about me, but about Him. I have worried, stressed, freaked out, and so much more over the language. God is able. I can trust Him. He is there.

Would you please pray that I would keep my eyes focused on Him, that He would grow my faith, and that He would continue to deepen my trust?