Balance

Do you ever achieve balance? Are there people out there that know how to handle things and respond to things with a clear head and keep things in perspective? I am sure there are, I am just not one of them. I tend to be a person of extremes in just about everything. Since living here, I feel as though this has been magnified. How do you not make your life your work? Especially as a single person? I know God does not need me, but I don't think I really believe it. When what I am doing affects the lives of so many, it is hard to not feel like things have to be done all the time. How do I take time to just sit at home relaxing when that means that the children at one of the villages might not get their porridge when they need it. How do I go over to a friend's home to have fun when there are children suffering? How do live in a world surrounded by poverty and need and spend $9 on Frosted Flakes? I did it. Today, I just really wanted some Frosted Flakes. As soon as I get to my car, there is a street child begging for money. I know that money is not the answer but it is hard to know what to do. The other night we watched "Runaway Bride." Who doesn't like the love story, but for me it was seeing the countryside, the leaves changing colors, the sight of something familiar. I miss America. But then there are times that I think, how can I go back to normal when I know what I know now and have seen what I have seen. I know that the only reason I am here is because God has called me here, but sometimes I just feel all turned around and upside down.