An inside look

Let me give you a bit of an inside look into the type of conversations that I have with God.

Me: "Lord Jesus, I pray that you will help us find teachers for our project schools."
God: "Will do, no problem"
Me: "No, I don't think you understand God. It is too difficult. "
God: "No, I do understand, I am working things out, you will see. "
Me: "God, do you really understand how difficult it is. Let me explain. There are very few teachers in general here in Tanzania."
God: "Yes, I know"
Me: "Okay, well did you also know that very few of them are Christians"
God: "Yes, I am working on that as well. "
Me: "Well, many claim to be Christians but actually are not, it is more a cultural thing. You are either a Muslim or Christian. We need people that love God and are willing to serve them. That is difficult to find."
God: "Meagan, remember I created the whole universe in six days, this is small potatoes."
Me: "God, are you reallly listening? There is no way you can do this. Most of the qualified teachers do not want to go in live in a village and live in difficult circumstances."
God: "I can handle difficult situations. I have some experience."
Me: "God, it is not just one project but five. How can you ever work that out? These teachers need to love Jesus, love children, have a heart to serve, work well with the other teachers. At the new schools we need strong leadership and a sense of unity."
God: "Trust me"
Me: "I do trust you, but I just don't think you understand how difficult it will be."
God: "Trust Me"
Me: "Ok, I guess I will trust you and see what happens."
God: "Look at the nations and watch and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe even if you were told." (Habbakuk 1:5) "Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be good in my house. Test me in this, says the Lord Almighty, and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it." (Malachi 3:10).

And wouldn't you know it, God did exactly what He said he would do, even though I pretty much tried to convince him otherwise. I truly am utterly amazed. God has brought amazing teachers to work with us. Things have come together in a way that only God can get the credit for! I am so thankful that God does not need me to be a strong, faithful Christian to use me. He uses a broken, faithless, questioning vessel.