Upside Down

So, we know that God is in control and that as God, He probably knows what He is doing. He has seen the future. He might be aware of a few more things than me and has at least a little more wisdom than me. Just a little though. =) But, still I question him. I wonder what He is up to. I wonder if He has really thought through everything and has considered everything. I try to give him advice. When will I ever learn? I am so thankful that He is so patient and gracious with me. Can you believe the arrogance of trying to tell God what He should do for me? After everything that I have been through, you would think that by now I would just simply trust Him. I am guessing that until I get to heaven, I am going to be a mess. 

As some of you know, I am back in the states again. I returned to Tanzania in mid January and had a whirlwind of activity. Great stuff that God did, amazing stuff really. And, as I was climbing Mt. Meru at about 11,500 feet, I received a phone call. Can't believe that there are hardly any paved roads in Tanzania but I can get cell phone coverage on the side of a mountain at that high of an elevation.  My mother had called to tell me that my beloved grandmother had passed away. I felt like I had been physically hit, like someone had sucker punched me. It still does not seem real. I returned home to go to her funeral. 

After a lot of prayer, I decided to stay here for now. I am still praying about the future and the next step.  I will be updating more. 

There were lots of interesting, crazy, amazing, and heartbreaking stories that I never had the chance to write about, so I will be writing more of those stories even though they are from a while ago.  So keep on looking....